"Here I go again on my own"

I did it again; I thought I could do it on my own.  I couldn't figure out why I was so happy for the past few days.  Then tonight God finally showed me.  I was doing it on my own. Even though it was great while it lasted, I fell on my face like everybody does when we are infatuated with ourselves. 

You see, I was only happy because there was nothing going on to make me unhappy.  The past few days have been CAKE!  I've just sat around and enjoyed life.  I asked out a pretty cool girl (she said yes ( -: ), I've seen some people I haven't seen in a while, I actually accomplished some things, too.  But as soon as the road gets a little rough I just crumble.  And praise God for it!  I don't know what I'd do if we didn't have a God that was involved with our lives!  I need my Father to knock me on my butt pretty often to remind me that I am creatED, not the creatOR.  These realignments are the moments that shape me most and they wouldn't happen without a loving God.  I need to thank Him more for just BEING Him.  He will always love, even when people don't.

Bible school went pretty well.  We didn't have very many kids again this year, but some kids actually brought their parents and stuff on sunday morning like we asked them to, and that never happens.  The parents really seemed to enjoy our church and the picnic following.  It might have been just the free food, but they really like spending time with the kids. 

This is my last week at work before my fishing trip to Canada (John wildman is from Canada, random fact #436).  I don't have much time t try and really impact my coworkers for Christ.  The last week and 1/2 or so I kinda got caught up in all the gossip that goes on there (I know guys, I'm spilling the beans that we gossip too) and it may have reversoed some of the work the Holy Spirit was doing.  But I hope I can really have a compassionate heart this week and know what to say, if anything, and when to say it.  Please pray that I can do this.  There are a couple of other Christians working there, but they squabble and argue and everything else the non-Christians do.  I'm no saint, but since I was only there a short time, I made it a point to try and display a joyful Christian life.  These other men, while they may be Christians whom I will see in heaven, do not try and display a Christian life, instead some try and Prove it.  They bombard the unbelievers with facts about the end of the world and even worse, their own oppinions about almost everything.  I was very much like this in highschool, but I think I'm slightly different now.  I think I want to impact the world for CHRIST, not for ME.  I think I am heading in the right direction.  I think too much.  All I need to do is let the Holy Spirit guide me and I can be an instrument of God's will.

Bible school this week...enough said...almost.  It makes for a pretty full day, but I know it's worth it, even if we only have 35 kids there.  I actually enjoy interacting with the kids and learning more effective ways of disciplining them.  VBS is probably similar to how kids see a music class and it will be my job to make sure the music class stay fun, but they learn what they are supposed to learn.  Anyway, I'm really looking forward to seeing everybody (by "every" I mean "most" [just kidding{maybe}])

Hey, also I'm thinking of singing "Only Grace" by Matthew West for my heartsong audition.  Any oher suggestions?  Let me know if you think the song is heartsong-esque.